tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6794174782911101654.post3476419700672818907..comments2023-05-21T05:31:21.648-07:00Comments on The Butterfly in my Throat: The Butterfly in my Throat : Fear & HopeJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03662311398670191958noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6794174782911101654.post-53491597200701950912014-11-01T15:49:43.291-07:002014-11-01T15:49:43.291-07:00First of all that smile you have in that graduatio...First of all that smile you have in that graduation picture is probably one of the most beautiful things I've seen in awhile. I can just see the relief from that burden you were carrying inside you. When you talked about the lack of control and fear you experienced, that really hit home with me. That was something new I've just been through with the lung infection. <br /><br />For about...like a year or so after I started my treatment, I would sporadically get searing chest pains and cough up blood like I did when my symptoms were at their peak, and it would just send me to the worst places because I didn't know if my lung had collapsed, or if the lesion had ruptured and tore through the lung wall, which was one of the main worries my infection disease doctor has had. I guess the worst part is, I live up north in Minneapolis and like, literally nobody has ever heard of valley fever. So my doctor doesn't ever know what to really expect. Thankfully she has been super good about keeping up with the experts in the Southwest that deal with it more frequently. I can't imagine having so many random ones though, as you did, with things like sun exposure that are so commonplace. <br /><br />I absolutely agree with the "bragging" comment you made about being around the very sick patients. I get contrast chest CT's done about every four months to see where I'm at and every time I have to walk through the oncology center. It is humbling to say the least, and I always feel bad about feeling bad for myself, even now, because all my symptoms are internal, nothing even comparable to what those people suffer on the day-to-day. <br /><br />Sorry, I could chat all day if you let me, product of living a solitary existence I suppose (as if you couldn't tell with how often I post in FWFG, lol) Beautifully written though, and incredibly inspiring Jennifer. This was so great to read, especially with the all the positivity at the end! You are such a good writer by the way, I really feel like I'm living your story as I read. I hope the happy ending isn't the end of this blog though! I'm very much enjoying learning about you. I'll trade you shuffles for more blog posts? :D haha.<br /><br />PS - I was listening to your orchestral piece while I read this, and just wow! You are crazy talented. I have an extreme affinity for music and played piano for many years, but people that can compose blow my mind. I could never do what you do. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07395005320117198849noreply@blogger.com